When Greenlee says to find someone from the Lavery family her baby can love, Kendall thinks it’s a beautiful sentiment, and it actually makes all the sense in the world. But, what happens if this particular Lavery doesn't love her baby back? Kendall thinks they could schlep all the way to Canada just to have Erin spit in their faces. Greenlee asks why she would? She loves Ryan just as much as they do. How could she not love his child? Kendall doesn’t mean to be a downer here, but isn't that exactly what she said about Ryan? All she’s asking is no airplanes, no added stress, no sneaking up on people who might not want to see them until they know what's what. Nervous, stressed and anxious to know if a part of Ryan will live on, Greenlee declares, “I don’t know what I’m going to do if that stick doesn’t turn blue, Kendall.” They may not get another chance at this. If she can’t hold Ryan's baby in her arms, it'll be like watching him die all over again. Only this time, she’ll die with him. Kendall insists they’ve done everything right, and there’s no reason why she’s not carrying her baby right now. Yes, the waiting sucks, but the two of them hopping on a plane to Canada won't change that. Greenlee agrees, probably not, “I'll just go to Nova Scotia alone.” She knows it won't be easy to see Ryan's sister, it's going to open up the floodgates all over again. Still, despite the grief, she knows it'll be worth it; they’ll help each other. Kendall protests she doesn’t even know if she has all of her marbles. Jonathan played caring brother-in-law to her face and then doped her with these wacky pills behind her back. She can't let her walk with open arms into a home of a woman she knows nothing about. Greenlee knows she’s her husband's sister, and that she loves him and misses him, same as she does. Ryan loved her, too, and he would have given anything to find her. He would want them to be together. Kendall asks who knows what’s going on in this girl’s head right now? If she even remotely blames her for any of her brothers' deaths, this could be bad. Greenlee scoffs she can't seriously think she's going to try and take her out! Kendall thinks worse, “You go to her with this beautiful offer to have her be a part of your child's life, and then she looks you in the eye and she tells you to go to hell. I can't let you risk that heartache.” She gets the need for her to keep busy and distracted, but going to meet his sister? Especially while she’s wigged out from this whole waiting game? Greenlee argues it won’t change the fact that she has baby on the brain 24/7. She just read about these babies in Africa who've been left parentless because of AIDS. All these beautiful, innocent children with no one to love them or hold them or feed them? It breaks her heart! Kendall suggests she focus on helping those kids and not worrying about her own. Greenlee tells her she already made a massive donation to the humanitarian aid agency, and is working on a matching fund campaign at Fusion. For every dollar an employee donates, Fusion will donate two. If they all gave up a latte a week and put all the money in the jar, they’d have so much money for those kids! “But, it's not enough, Kendall. I've been cursed with a multitask brain. I can do a million things and still obsess about my own baby.” She’s given her a second chance at motherhood, and she wants it so bad, she can taste it. She gave her a reason to hope again. Not only can she do that for Erin, but she wants her child to have people like her in his life to hold him and love him and protect him, “And I know that kind of love is waiting for us in Nova Scotia. We just have to go find it.” Kendall agrees finding Erin is important, but they should at least know if she’s pregnant before making a run for the border. Greenlee admits Erin did say she was having a hard time losing all of her brothers at once. She needed time to recover and she would call her when she was ready. Kendall says she’s obviously not completely closing the door, just sending a very clear message—not now. She knows she’s anxious to connect with Ryan's family, but Nova Scotia will always be there. So, right now, just let it go.
After Greenlee leaves, Kendall looks over at Zach’s darkened condo. She calls Zach at the office and says she’s just checking in to see if he’s dead yet. Zach’s fine, he thinks, “How about you? Pregnant yet?” Kendall calls that the million-dollar question, “Still up in the air. Keep me posted?” Zach agrees, “You do the same.” They end the call and both smile, secretly pleased to keep a connection going between them.
Back at the penthouse, Greenlee packs as she makes a call, “How about a charter flight to someplace warm? No. No occasion, just looking to get away, clear my head. Sure, that works. Yeah, I'm still here. You know what? Change of plans—I'd like to go to Nova Scotia. Great. I'm on my way.”
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