Jack gets a call, and Tad asks if they found Lily? Jack groans she evidently didn't get off that train. She hid herself somewhere on it and rode it all the way to Manhattan. He can't believe this! Tad says to give him five minutes, he can have six guys on the street. He’s even got a guy in Manhattan right now. Jack thanks him, and says to get somebody on Jonathan Lavery, whatever he does, “He's got to know something. I know he does. And when Lily contacts him, I want to be the first to know about it.”
BRING IT ON!
Kendall tells Zach he was right, she wants her son more than her own life, and she also wants him. She tried to get over him, but she couldn’t. She didn’t want things to be this way; she kept waiting for him to do something wrong or dreadful and she tried to stop wanting him, “I don’t want to stop wanting you anymore.” She doesn’t want to be that girl, the girl she became over the last couple of months. She became afraid of everything, life and choices, of herself. When she stopped trusting everyone, she stopped trusting herself. That girl she thought she kicked to the curb and outgrew was back, and she was terrified of everything, especially the Big Three, the baby, and loving, because loving means trusting, and especially him, “You scared me the most.” Zach takes her hand and kisses it. Kendall sighs that he always had more faith in her than she did, and he reminds her that she doesn’t always want to hear that. When she says she wanted to go back to being the woman that she was on New Year's Eve, Zach agrees he misses that woman very much. Kendall goes on that she just wanted to move forward and be clear, and he made that possible. So, bring it on. Whatever it is, bring it on, she can take it, “Not to say you don't still scare the crap out of me.” It's about time she starts trusting her own feelings again. She is scared to death of having this baby and raising him, but she wants to anyway. She can't miss out on the chance to have him in her life, and she can't miss out on the chance to have Zach in her life, and she’s scared to death of her feelings for him. “Because I let you down,” Zach nods. Kendall says because of who he is and who she is, and who they are together, but she still wants him anyway. Zach protests he didn’t bring her here to change her mind about him. Kendall goes on that every time she felt the ice ready to crack and break under her at any time, she would just run as fast as she could. She couldn't forgive anyone for anything. She stood here and told him that she couldn't forgive Ryan for something that he did to her years ago. If someone betrayed her, she either hits back or runs, or both. She’s petrified, scared out of her mind, “I'm here, on this boat and all I see is the unforgivable, but all I want to do is forgive.”
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